This is not an episode of Grey’s where I talk to myself about things I learned or have been through. This week is another learning week. It definitely feels like the past 2 weeks have been an awakening moment. I’m finally getting it now.

Funny how the signs are so much clearer when you’re finally paying attention. Was just looking at all the little signs and the little hints that has been left for me. I can finally say, I see how the puzzle fits now.

This is me looking at the entire puzzle, the big picture and finally assembling it.

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The feeling is liking puking. You hate it but it just happened. Oh no, I’m not talking about me having too much to drink. I’m talking about this episode of How I Met Your Mother. It feels like they’ve sunk a little by making Robin and Barney hook up. Makes me a little uneasy.

The same feeling I got when I heard Katherine Heigl got married last year…

Why? Oh why must it be this way? Makes me lose a little hope in life…

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Today is the first official day for my spring training. Yeah, the conditions were ripe – I am tired and needed an extra boost of positive energy (had lots of negativity this week). It helped that it was also 70 deg when I went out.

Rode a few miles (not eactly sure how much) but enough to get my heart beat going. Started running afterwards. I can’t run in this condition for too much longer. Last time I did, I ended up hurting myself really badly.

In less than 4 months, I will do another triathlon. Hopefully I can beat my previous time – 99 mins. This is my only goal for pushing myself physically.

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Mood today: chipper.

I’m wondering why people say, “Hope you have a great day” or ask, “How are you doing?” They are categorized under small talk or questions asked that have one expected answer, “Thanks” or “I’m doing great”.

What if you’re not having a good day? What if your dog just died? You’re not having a good day. It may not be the worst day but it is still not your favorite. Do you lie and say yes?

Yes, I understand I’m in the culture of being nice goes a long way and some things are just said for fun, just another form of acknowledgement. It’s yes, being polite for one but definitely insincere. Do you honestly care if I’m having a good day? What if I tell you no?

Almost everyone says it and don’t really mean it. I find myself saying it once in a while except I do say thanks a lot. Mostly coz I’m thankful of our conversation or your answer. So, the next time you see me and you want to say something nice, tell me what makes your day great. Tell me what a nice day you’ve had… Don’t ask me to give you a pre-recorded answer.

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Things are starting to feel like they are falling into place. It’s a scary feeling. Last time I had this kind of feeling, everything ended up falling to pieces, so I’m a little cautious this time around. I’m definitely hopeful and glad that things are starting to shape and change for the better.

I’m esctatic about getting that email today. It’s one that I’ve definitely been frustrated with and been waiting for. It’s official.

In case you’re wondering about the title, that’s a song by Ramones. Appropriate for the situation.

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