I’m an engineer that is very superstitious. I believe in facts and I believe that the subconscious controls us.
My horoscopes reads, “Your emotional choice will affect you personally and professionally”. Those words are very haunting – my emotional choices? Or was it my personal choices? Not sure. Either way, I’m not sure where it is leading me or what it is implying.
Then all day I felt a little lonely – I got the feeling of what I wanted, or is it a feeling that I’m trying to hide?
How do they get away with it?
I believe in helping people that has been hit by bad times – if they lost their job and can’t make mortgage payments. But being stupid with mortgage – buying more than you make? I’m not the best at this but at least I make sure interest is covered with my mortgage.
Sometimes I read between the lines too much. Like when I learned about how I got the job that I’m in now – is this an indication that I found my place in this world? I’ve been lucky with my last job before but is this for real?
Here’s another one. I am seeing lots of trends that this year will be a good year for me but there’s all this lingering things in the distance that tells me otherwise. I know I should work through the problems and it’ll sort itself out. Is this a problem with me fighting with myself?
I’m not a runner. My legs are not built for running. It’s awkwardly shaped and it’s so hard on my body. Yet I do it. And I did a 10K run today, in the middle of dead winter and it’s just something that most people don’t find fun.
I was hoping… Hoping for that one twist of fate that would change it. Perhaps I’m living in the pipe dream like always.
Anyways, a record 10K for myself – non-stop and in an hour. Woo hoo!
In a day, a lot of things can change. In a week, a lot of lives can be affected. This is unfortunately how I felt when I got back from my trip.I’m not sure how to interpret things but it’s definitely a time for change and a time for looking back at how fragile things are.
I left the country and came back. In just 2 weeks, it felt like the world has turned upside down and inside out for me. Lots changed in the last 2 weeks more than it ever did.
It’s more of the large number of changes in the short amount of time that really did it. I’m one for change but not when it is negatively impacting so many people.
Looks like I need another vacation to recover from this ‘vacation’.